It was nearing the end of the day on the third Monday since I started working from home and I was in – yet another – Zoom meeting. The meeting moderator asked each of us to share one word to describe how we were feeling that day. I was near the end of those called on and, as I heard people sharing words like “sunny,” “excited,” and “encouraged,” I held on to my word. “Anxious.”

I was feeling anxious about several additional stressors at work that week. My supervisor was returning from parental leave and we’d be catching her up on everything. Reunions were likely going to be cancelled or postponed but we didn’t know which. I’ve been in non-stop meetings but don’t feel like I’m accomplishing anything.

Additionally, my family held a Zoom family dinner the night before and I was realizing that it would likely be months before I’d get to see them in person again.

A colleague’s daughter joined her on camera as my name was called. She looked to be the same age as my oldest niece and, suddenly, my word changed. As I realized that I hadn’t hugged my nieces in over a month, I found myself on camera, in a Zoom meeting for work, crying. My new word was “sad.”

While I’ve been great at social distancing, I’m realizing that it’s been over three weeks since I’d seen anyone I know in person. As someone who’s not overly emotional and who definitely doesn’t cry in front of people, this wasn’t my finest hour. However, the outpouring of kindness and support from those in the meeting was amazing. In private chats, others shared that they were having similar feelings and offered words of encouragement.

While I’d consider myself an introvert (yes, the first two weeks of social distancing were a breeze), this experience reinforced the need for connection. I’m learning to be gentle and patient with myself and others.

Now, more than ever, I’m so glad to have found “my people” through Couch to 5K and am incredibly thankful for the amazing friends this program brought into my life.

I am finding so much joy and connection through our Tuesday and Thursday Zoom walks (see photo). The Saturday morning at-home workouts over Zoom followed by homemade coffee and chatting have created some sense of normalcy.

To my wonderful Couch to 5K family, I offer heartfelt gratitude. Whether you realize it or not, your encouragement and friendship give me strength. I can’t imagine social distancing without you!

If anyone is interested in joining us, please reach out to me at nicole.losavio@gmail.com. I’m happy to loop you in.